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The Common Room / cant do this for a while
« on: Saturday 02 April 16 19:35 BST (UK) »
a long time ago i started my family research, i found rootschat and my research became so much more fun. other people were interested in this too! i had people to help me and more importantly people who i could share the frustrations with. then i became pregnant and my world fell apart for a lot of reasons. i disappeared from rootschat and couldn't face the idea of ever doing family research again. i didn't thank anyone here or tell anyone where i was going or why. in fact even now I'm back doing this i still haven't told many people what happened in my life despite a lot of fellow rootschatters almost becoming daily electronic penpals.
anyway on Monday 21st March at 6.20am my grandmother passed away. i was with her along with my sister and my mum. it was one of the hardest things i have ever lived through. my granmother had lung cancer and had decided very early on she wanted no intervention or fussing when the time came. we respected her wishes and it was very peaceful and calm, but so so traumatic for us. since then i have struggled with normal functioning, most days i get through it because of my children and husband. people tell me it will get easier and i have no doubt it might. if not easier to accept at least easier to live with.
this time i didn't want to just leave and not say thank you to everyone who has helped me. there are so many of you who have helped me with my research but also with some more personal problems. i will come back and do family research one day I'm sure. i just don't think i can face it now. not for a long while i would think. i cant imagine logging into any of my trees and filling in those devastating details.
thank you to everyone who has helped me encouraged me or even just laughed with me at my daft ways.
anyway on Monday 21st March at 6.20am my grandmother passed away. i was with her along with my sister and my mum. it was one of the hardest things i have ever lived through. my granmother had lung cancer and had decided very early on she wanted no intervention or fussing when the time came. we respected her wishes and it was very peaceful and calm, but so so traumatic for us. since then i have struggled with normal functioning, most days i get through it because of my children and husband. people tell me it will get easier and i have no doubt it might. if not easier to accept at least easier to live with.
this time i didn't want to just leave and not say thank you to everyone who has helped me. there are so many of you who have helped me with my research but also with some more personal problems. i will come back and do family research one day I'm sure. i just don't think i can face it now. not for a long while i would think. i cant imagine logging into any of my trees and filling in those devastating details.
thank you to everyone who has helped me encouraged me or even just laughed with me at my daft ways.