Roobarb, I am sorry to hear that you had a rough day yesterday. I know things have been hard with what happened to the Clematis and the cancellation of your holiday on top of what is what is already going on - anyone would be feeling low about all that. It is a good thing that you are so disciplined about having a regular walk as this exercise is known to help boost the mood. I think you are doing really well - of course no one would say 'get a grip'. I think I would find things so much harder if I didn't have work to go to which can feel like a little bit of normal. Just hang on in there, this can't last forever and imagine the boost you will get when everything does finally get back to normal.
Thanks mowsehowse, I was a little scared on Wednesday night and momentarily felt like phoning police to say I was feeling unsafe but then I thought no I can't do that I must just hide instead. I have since heard the station is now closed for resurfacing for 8 days now so I will have to try to get some bus from somewhere else when I go to work next week. I have sent off my Mass Observation diary too! Hopefully, they will acknowledge receipt of our diaries soon. It is nice that you are dropping in on this thread too. As Caroline has said, this helps make us feel that we are all in it together. It is good to read other entries to see how others are managing and coping.
Diary:
Woke up a little later than usual but still early. After breakfast I went to my local town to shop. Last night the bus driver told me that the Haymarket bus station is going to be closed for eight days now. I was so tired I just thanked him for the information but didn't think to ask why. I ask today and a bus driver tells me this is so resurfacing can be carried out.
Some shops in my local town no longer have queues I see.
On return I have lunch and look at articles. Robert De Niro is quoted as likening the present situation to science fiction. That is exactly how I feel. It still feels incredible that all this is happening and is not some crazy science fiction story. The article also relates about the ongoing antagonism between De Niro and Trump. De Niro is quoted as swearing about Trump and Trump referring to De Niro as a low IQ person. I think all this swearing and name calling is just silly and childish and I think they should both be able to express what they think/feel without getting personal or insulting.
After this I do some housework. I had considered cutting the grass but the sun is not as bright as in the morning and it feels windy and cold.
I had been feeling really tired so I went for a lie down but fell asleep for a while. After tea, I check and respond to messages. Sister in law sent a recipe (she has got from somewhere - likely H & B) for vegan biscuits with loads of (expensive sounding) ingredients which can be bought apparently from Holland & Barrett. I think it would cost a bomb to make up that recipe. I think sister in law must have momentarily forgotten I am working class and therefore won't be likely to spend £20+ to make six biscuits.
Sister in law lovely person though, and has also sent me a genealogy magazine through the post as a surprise! I look through this with enjoyment today.
I also do my Mass Observation diary entry write up, check this over, take a deep breath and press send!
At 8 pm I fling open my front door once again and clap with others in my street. Again I hear the awful booming bomb like fire works going off and see the birds flee in terror across the sky.
Added: Just this second have had an email to say my writing for 'Mass Observation' has arrived.
