I give up. The Government have announced there won’t be a review of people fined for travelling for child care, therefore suggesting it was illegal. Yet it was legal for DC to do it! If that isn’t one rule for you and another for us, I don’t know what is.
I just can't get over the entire cabinet going on TV and effectively telling me I don't love my family enough, that I don't care enough that I am an unfit parent because I categorically would not do the same. Childcare to keep going to work has been so difficult the past couple of months to both sort childcare and maintain lockdown adherence, shielding advice and still work my rostered shifts but it was only hard because I don't care enough and am not a good enough parent. I've also had to tell someone that they cannot come and visit their very sick relative, that they cannot have a full funeral so what they're saying is that I have inadvertently told these people that they don't care enough (totally not my intention, my intention was to save lives). There was light at the end of the tunnel, case numbers were falling but now people will wholescale rather than stepwise ease lockdown and we won't be back to square one, as we're coming from a higher baseline the potential is for a significantly higher peak. This feels like the straw that broke the camels back, it has pushed me over the edge. A lot of tears, a lot of self punishment because I feel like I must be evil, a failure as a mum and even as a person.
