Caroline, so many of your comments resonate with me. I regularly wake up and have no idea what day it is, although the last couple of Saturdays I've been convinced it was Sunday. Like you, I feel so apathetic about life, nothing to look forward to, no idea when I'll have the company of another human being. I too, have strange sleep and waking patterns, at first I was sleeping really heavily for many hours. More recently I've had some nights when I couldn't get to sleep but that's been because of the vandalism to my garden. I've had some mornings when I've woken up late and a couple of early ones this week, that's not so unusual for me at this time of year, I go back into hibernation mode in autumn. As far as all cupboards etc being sorted .... well they're still on my to do list! Eating and sleeping when I want isn't unusual for me, living alone means I don't have to cater to anyone else's habits. I hope today is proving more positive for you
My diary for Thursday:
Up earlier, usual walk, not too many people about. Was cloudy but the sun had started to come out.
Back home, can't really remember what I did then as I'm writing Thursday's diary on Friday. Had lunch at some point. Went out to cut the front lawn, it was getting a bit messy. The young woman over the road said hello, she works at the leisure centre I go to, she said she's missing work and is bored. I told her that I'm not bored, just fed up.
Dug all the narcissi and (mostly dead) pansies out of the flower beds, I have nothing to put in them, I'd usually be putting in bedding plants. Took the bulbs through to the back garden for the rest of the foliage to die down. Had some good news yesterday, the council will be emptying the garden waste bins on Sunday, hooray.
Got my lounging chair out, dressed in usual sunbathing attire with Kindle at hand. Got a phone call, didn't want to talk outside with ears flapping next door, brought me back indoors for some time, too late to resume sunbathing after that.
Wasn't hungry till relatively late, hadn't long finished before it was time to go outside and clap. Nasty neighbour and her daughter were out there clapping, their hypocrisy makes me angry. If the daughter had lived alone and been self isolating it might be more forgivable that she should decide to come and stay with her mother for several days, but neither of those apply.